Sometimes life knocks you down.
I quit my job a few months before my sister passed away. After quitting, I spent my first weeks at home, enjoying quality time with family, working on house projects, and thinking about the next phase of my life. Shortly after leaving my job, I spent close to two weeks helping care for my newborn nephew. For the first time in a long time, I traded my work computer for my journal and a few books. That experience felt liberating.
A few weeks later, I had made plans to visit my sister overseas, where she was getting cancer treatment. I was looking forward to spending time with her and doing what I could to lift her spirit.
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Life does not happen as planned.
Unfortunately, things do not always go as planned. The night before my trip, my sister passed away. I got on a plane as scheduled, but instead of spending quality time with my sister, I was planning her funeral.
After the funeral, my family and I were able to spend a few weeks with my parents, siblings, and brother in law. We were all in disbelief that within seven months of her cancer diagnosis, my sister had left us.
She passed on a month before Christmas, which made the holidays very difficult for our family. During that time, I could not get my mind to think about entrepreneurship or any of my projects. Getting out of bed was a challenge in itself.
Learning to live with grief.
It has been three months now. After a lot of tears, prayers, and soul searching, I’m starting to think about the future again.
My pastor recommended a book that really help process grief: A Grace disguised by Jerry Sittser.
It paints the difficult picture of the road ahead so vividly but also gave me hope.
I thank God for my three kids and husband, who bring me so much joy every day despite the pain. I’m thankful for the family that I still have. I’m grateful for the time spent with my sister, and I’m so glad nothing was left unsaid before she passed. I don’t think that the wound will ever close completely because my sister was omnipresent in my life. However, every day I’m learning to live with the pain. I’m learning to lean more into my faith.
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Learning to live with grief and to be inspired.
My sister’s battle with cancer inspired me. I will forever remember the grace and strength she displayed this past year. No matter how hard things got, she kept a smile on her face and lifted the people around her. I will carry that on with me forever.
As this new chapter of my life begins, I’m reminded that it is essential to live fully and appreciate the people in your life as tomorrow is never guaranteed.
“When great souls die, after a period peace blooms, slowly and always irregularly. Spaces fill with a kind of soothing electric vibration.
Our senses, restored, never to be the same, whisper to us. They existed. They existed. We can be. Be and be better for they existed.” Maya Angelou
Une Soeur c’est précieux et unique. C’est vraiment un don de Dieu. Ta Soeur est en toi, ne serait ce qu à travers tes magnifique mots qui honorent comme il se doit sa mémoire.
So sorry for your loss
Thank you for sharing this; it’s healing 🙏🏾
I’m glad it is helping.